Wednesday, 12 September 2012

A conversation with my spirit guide

Craig: "Sometimes, even highly evolved souls can 'lose it'.
Me:    "Why is that?"
C:       "It's called 'soul loss'."
Me:     "I've heard of that - a shamanistic thing...Tell me about 'soul loss'."
C:        "When you forget who you are."
Me:     "Why should we forget who we are?"
C:       " A number of reasons. To counteract any deficiencies. To learn. Mainly to learn - problems of                     the age. It's like the slate gets wiped clean. You have to start all over again. To learn new lessons."
Me:     "That's hard. That's tough."
C:        "That's the way it is."

Thursday, 30 August 2012

On Trust and Clinging

On the relief of finding trust, I can let go of all that I cling to.

And what do I cling to? I cling to desiring certain outcomes. If this works out this way, or that way, I'll be okay. I'll be able to cope. I'll feel secure. And in that clinging, feeling the energy inside my body -wringing, wrenching, twisting, anxiety. But on trusting, it really doesn't matter whether the outcome is that which I desire or not. On trusting, I am quite happy as I am, where I am, doing what I do and being happy. In this moment. A state of acceptance, enjoyment, gratitude, love, friendship, nourishment. It's
all here now, already.

So what else do I cling to? Well, I cling to wanting more. It never being enough. Whereas in reality, in a state of trust, I know that it is perfect. Any more would be too much, and too much of something is overcrowding, is, can be suffocating, and can even lead to insanity if taken too far. So what I have, what I experience is just right. Just right. No more, no less.

I cling to wanting to learn faster. While in a state of trust I accept that I learn at the rate I learn and that I learn all I need to learn to lead a fulfilled and purposeful life. And when the time is right, my rose will bloom. I have no doubt.

Impatience clings to me. It has clung to me since I was a tiny child. Mmm. In a state of trust I am already where I am meant to be, and I know it. So there is no room for impatience. Mmm.

And something else I cling to. Time. My life itself. I try to pull back time. I try to avoid seeing my body age. I try to avoid acknowledging that I am now as old as my mother was. I cling to the desire of eternal youth! Whoa! What a myth. What a myth that is. On one level. And yet, when I trust, in a state of trust I realise that eternal youth is mine. Alas, not in the body, but a state of being. Then I am free to enjoy the ageing process and the riches that come along the way.

I cling to wanting more. I want it all and I want it now. Dear, dear! What a predicament. Am I desiring insanity? On trusting, I know that I have it all and I have it now.

Another word for trust? Acceptance.

Monday, 16 July 2012

Right now I'm feelin' good

When the pressure eases and everything comes together, oh boy, does it feel good!
When there's land in sight after months of being at sea, oh boy, am I grateful!
When I feel relaxed and life is working, oh boy, what a relief!
When things start to go right even though it would appear on the outside that things are dreadful, then hey, I must be on the right track!

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If interested, send me a message there and book yourself in!


When you feel your Reiki isn't working...

When you feel your Reiki isn't working, or you can't feel what you expect to feel, just keep doing daily self-practice.

Rid your mind of all concepts of what you think you should be experiencing, and listen to the slightest of sensations anywhere in your body. Don't dismiss anything you feel as 'just normal' feelings. The more you place your awareness on the subtle tingling/vibrations/heat/coolness,whatever you feel, no matter how small and seemingly insignificant, the more you will enjoy it.

We have become so dense in many ways. It is our sensitivity which needs more fine tuning, by our acknowledgement. The Reiki energy itself is always there - so long as we are alive!

I never feel heat in my hands. I used to doubt my ability, but I persisted. Now it can be quite blissful, feeling the lovely, lovely healing in my body under my hands. Aaaah! Like sinking into a delicious energy bath. Then my heart fills with gratitude and the experience is heightened.

I'm not saying I can expect this every time, but most times, so long as I have put that space aside with intention, it is there. Find also, your best time to be responsive. And of course, nothing can replace quiet, undisturbed space.

Learn to let go to twitching, electrical responses in your body. Move, go beyond your inhibitions. Those subtle, subtle sensations will soon become charged and active by practice. Be open to anything and accept, go with it, and Reiki will be there for you. It is such a rewarding and exciting journey.

Namaste, Rose

Tuesday, 10 July 2012

Tonight's Realisation

It comes as such an enormous relief to fully realise that the very best way to help someone is to help myself. I can never solve another's problems for them. How could I? That is their task and theirs alone. 

What use would it be to your child if you did not sever the umbilical cord?

As much as we love our children and feel so responsible for them, there comes a time when we have to cut that emotion and trust that they will swim free into their own ocean where they belong.

Be there for yourself and life will pick up your loved ones. Our lives belong to us, not each other. The closer I can be to God, the closer I can connect with true Spirit, the more effective my intention and desire for healing for my loved ones can be. This is all I have to concern myself with fundamentally. "Seek ye first..." and all that. Take the plank out of my own eye...

I feel I can expect big changes in my life now. It's sink or swim for some right now. And you know what? I suspect he's a brilliant swimmer really. I know it. He's about to find out!

I feel more optimistic. I feel at a turning point in my life. This in turn allowing my son to turn his life around. He's a winner. As my guide once said to me, "There's a loser in all of us." (Not what we want to hear, I know, but there is a certain amount of solace to be found in that word 'all'.)

We choose failure at some point only to catapult us into success.

When light comes, and trust really finds it's way into my experience, then OMG what a relief! So everything really is all right?! Everything really is meant to be, and everything's really gonna work out right?! Oh, wow! Thank God!

How we hate the hard times. How I struggle with my struggle! Then the light comes and I see clearly once again, beyond all the hope and holding on. Boy, does this life stretch me and pull me!

Evolution never did come easily.

I am thankful for my spiritual understanding. Even more so for my realization.

Saturday, 19 May 2012

The Wonderment that is Reiki

Reiki is calling me again. I'd lost touch. Forgotten the magic. It returns to me, beckons me back. I love it.
It completes the picture for me, somehow. You know, we hear it everywhere, Reiki, Reiki, Reiki. So many people doing Reiki these days...

Until you experience it you can't imagine.

The more I immerse myself in this healing art, the more I am in awe of the sheer Grace involved.

For those interested in taking their lives forward, Reiki is so much more than a useful tool in our self-development box. We take the responsibility to shoulder whatever may come up in the process of self-healing towards fulfilment and completion and enjoy the tremendous fruits that appear as a result.

What is there to lose? Well, for a start, we lose being stuck in a rut! We charge our batteries with pure life-force energy and say, "OK, God (or Universe or Great Spirit or Life or whatever label you want to put in there), take me on!

Why hang around dressing my wounds, and feeling sorry for myself any longer? Maybe this process can actually be a wonderful adventure rather than a total confrontation.

Reiki is first and foremost a personal path towards joining with our divinity. Within that journey inevitably comes healing and resolution. Quite a package!

And then the opportunity to share that link with others and help them help themselves.

So much to learn and experience. So much more to this than I realise. So much more power. Much more, so much more.

Thursday, 26 April 2012


Hello again, any passers by...

I have always kept diaries or journals. I record all my messages from Spirit. Before now I could not even dream of making them available for others to read. But, hey, what is there to lose?

My card this evening told me to drop my masks and be myself. What mask? What, me? Surely not...there must be some mistake!

Our masks become so much a part of our way of being that we fool even ourselves into believing that's who we are. To let my real self shine - eek, scary! That could change everything! Rock a few boats, bring new boats into harbour, all sorts. Mmm...

So we get on with our self-development; but really sometimes all we are doing is working at changing our masks. Fooling ourselves again. Adapting, making them appear more real.

Who we really are is already complete. Total. Fulfilled. Beautiful. At one with the Universe. Pure spirit.

The thing about masks is that they allow us to hide. Why hide? Umm, 'cos I'm afraid I will receive negativity from others if I honour myself completely. Who am I fooling?! Nothing could be farther from the truth. Okay, so we might as I said, rock a few boats, but that's their problem!

Years ago I had a dream. In the dream everyone was wearing a mask. It was one of the freakiest dreams I've ever had. And yet, in reality...

Masks are not always necessarily of our own making, although we do have to give ourselves permission to wear them. Many would project a mask onto someone for their own comfort. Some people allow themselves to get really ill rather than take the darn thing off. Fear of what others might think. I don't want to get ill. I don't want to live a lie. I choose to honour myself, take off all masks, take the plunge and get on with it.

It's all about accepting my vulnerability, being true to myself and trusting Life. It's also about being ready. I couldn't have done this any sooner; I needed the protection that my dear mask afforded me.

And even still, my 'plunge' will only be dipping my big toe in the water at first...shallow water, at that.

Tuesday, 24 April 2012


I have invited a few folk to be nosey and check out my Blog. So welcome all, and thank-you.

I am a Scorpio. We have four signs - the scorpion, the phoenix, the eagle and the dove. All about transmutation, shedding skins and evolution. Intensely! Of course.

So, very much relating to the old phoenix at the moment. It dies and is reborn from the ashes. I feel I have been waiting for this all my life. Major breakthrough on the horizon. Always held in by my moon in Cancer. Hey! Freedom time! Eureka!

No, I'm not an astrologer. Only the relevant teeny weeny bits I find interesting.

So today, Kayley, Tony and I met to develop our intuition and spiritual awareness.
How important it is for me to get help in my life! Can you imagine not having any help? Heck. It's hard enough as it is.

I get tremendous help from my spirit guides who whisper in my inner ear every night. Hinting at things to come, things that have passed by, and giving me insight into my life. Ever since the age of about 14, I wanted to know how life was supposed to work, and get it right. Get the most out of life, not in terms of what I did or achieved, but in terms of understanding what it's all about. Let's face it. We never know when our time is up. Might as well use this earthly life in the manner it was intended, eh?

I'm sure everyone does their best, but I would not like to be near the end and realise it all too late...

Tuesday, 17 April 2012

Let's begin

My spirit guide, Craig, said to me last night, "Don't you have your own Blog?"
So here we go!

What shall I put in it?

Well, all sorts!

How much of me do I want to share with anyone out there? Mmm...Up till now, very little. But I know I have a lot to share of great value.

Value of Life, of Spirit. Of Divinity.

As I witness more friends battle with serious illness, it brings it home to me how time has been ticking. Suddenly I am really aware of the transience of this existence and the importance of filling my time with appreciation and love. For my consciousness is everything. It is my passport to a fulfilled existence. Not what I do, but where I am coming from. Coming from the right place can be so powerful in itself. Just sitting in silence can say so much. Can be so healing.

For so many years it has been a matter of keeping buoyant, keeping myself from going under emotionally - and failing over and over, but always finding myself back on my feet, stronger, more stable and substantial. More and more complete.

So now, at 54 years and a bit, I feel ready to start really living. Finding my purpose and getting on with it.

And what might that purpose be? Well, it has to do with shining a light. It is about Truth. It is about Fulfilment. It is the culmination of my Life training. How tremendously exciting!

Hey! I feel suddenly I could write and write and write!

This is fun and was so easy to set up!

Speak again soon.